Libri GmbH Song of Chaos: A Memoir of Survival, Motherhood, and Healing

What happens when a child learns to survive chaos before she learns how to feel safe?

In Song of Chaos, Joanna Przybyla tells a raw and deeply personal story of growing up in a home shaped by alcohol, violence, silence, music, and love. From the outside, her family looked normal. Inside, she learned to stay alert, become invisible, and try to hold everyone together.

Music became both her escape and her voice. It carried her from a difficult childhood in Poland to stages, travel, and eventually a new life in Portugal. But changing countries did not immediately change the patterns she carried inside: addiction, destructive relationships, financial struggle, and the fear of being abandoned.

When an unexpected pregnancy made her a single mother, Joanna faced a decision that changed everything. Raising her daughter, Eva, forced her to confront the wounds she thought she had left behind-and to begin breaking a cycle she never wanted to repeat.

This is a memoir about surviving family trauma, finding strength in motherhood, grieving imperfect parents, and learning to choose health, honesty, and self-love. It is a story for anyone who has felt trapped by the past and wondered whether it is ever possible to begin again.

Song of Chaos is ultimately a reminder that healing is not a single moment. It is a choice made again and again: to stay awake, to ask for help, to love bravely, and to build a different life.